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Wednesday, June 8, 2011

is everything



Enamored its all is
Desire to become the goal
To sense the again state, to lean you, to lean itself on the other hand
Enjoy the outlook
Believe to be able to hold no knowledge the condition
To suck, to exclude and use
Good egoism, wanted given egoism, that presently
I give you the egoism
Use it and would lean is you on, it my will
It seems to not to become yield
It remains hard and pushes itself against your back
And presses you further towards the top
You cannot reach the goal
There is no goal that lead gates towards the top in the endless, no satisfaction
Ignore vertigo feelings, view just out of, would stare, would stare straight ahead
That you float
Do you sense correctly?
Pure conceit?
It is correct – it is egoism

Monday, May 23, 2011

kubrick on god


I will say that the God concept is at the heart of 2001 but
not any traditional, anthropomorphic image of God. I don't believe in
any of Earth's monotheistic religions, but I do believe that one can
construct an intriguing scientific definition of God, once you accept
the fact that there are approximately 100 billion stars in our galaxy
alone, that each star is a life-giving sun and that there are
approximately 100 billion galaxies in just the visible universe. Given
a planet in a stable orbit, not too hot and not too cold, and given a
few billion years of chance chemical reactions created by the
interaction of a sun's energy on the planet's chemicals, it's fairly
certain that life in one form or another will eventually emerge. It's
reasonable to assume that there must be, in fact, countless billions of
such planets where biological life has arisen, and the odds of some
proportion of such life developing intelligence are high. Now, the sun
is by no means an old star, and its planets are mere children in cosmic
age, so it seems likely that there are billions of planets in the
universe not only where intelligent life is on a lower scale than man
but other billions where it is approximately equal and others still
where it is hundreds of thousands of millions of years in advance of
us. When you think of the giant technological strides that man has made
in a few millennia -- less than a microsecond in the chronology of the
universe -- can you imagine the evolutionary development that much
older life forms have taken? They may have progressed from biological
species, which are fragile shells for the mind at best, into immortal
machine entities -- and then, over innumerable eons, they could emerge
from the chrysalis of matter transformed into beings of pure energy and
spirit. Their potentialities would be limitless and their intelligence
ungraspable by humans.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

ebert on malick


Many films diminish us. They cheapen us, masturbate our senses, hammer us with shabby thrills, diminish the value of life. Some few films evoke the wonderment of life's experience, and those I consider a form of prayer. Not prayer "to" anyone or anything, but prayer "about" everyone and everything. I believe prayer that makes requests is pointless. What will be, will be. But I value the kind of prayer when you stand at the edge of the sea, or beneath a tree, or smell a flower, or love someone, or do a good thing. Those prayers validate existence and snatch it away from meaningless routine.

Thursday, December 23, 2010


i wish i could be in love with you.

but i can't.
you don't actually exist.

i'm just in love with the idea of you.
oh well.
it's nice to think about.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

what direction?


life begins at the intersection.